How I Was Toxic In Relationships

This one's a doozy.

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Part of healing is taking accountability.

If you wake up one day and realize all your romantic relationships played out the same way, it’s time to look at your own behavior. Back in the fall of 2021, I was 28. I had just gotten out of yet another situationship with a guy who had a history of gaslighting and crazy exes. I knew the ways in which he was toxic.

But could I be toxic too?

What was it about me that was causing me to end up with men who were terrible. Why did I feel like I had to tolerate breadcrumbing? Why was I settling for casual when what I actually wanted was something that felt like a relationship? I knew when entering a casual situation, I would eventually want to know if the relationship could progress. I knew I’d eventually—if the relationship felt more involved—want to know if he was sleeping with someone else. So why was I signing up for this song and dance in the first place?